After being bed ridden for a year, in pain so excruciating and debilitating that I could not even stand the pain to think (Netflix really does shut your thinking brain off, by the way…), I had a choice to make.
Summed up beautifully in the words of the song by The Clash, “Should I stay or should I go now? If I go there will be trouble. And if I stay, it will be double.” How true…
Western medicine told me to rest, but I felt my organs shutting down and I was honestly done with being in so much pain and palpable fatigue. Giving into the pull of letting go was alluringly tempting. But, I had some pretty epic kids, and I wanted to stick around for them, and raising them from my bed was not how I wanted to do it. I allowed myself to suspend all disbelief and fear and check out the woo-woo offerings people had tried to get me to consider. I was incredulously better after 1 session. After 3, I was completely well.
A YEAR OF EXCRUCIATING PAIN AND BEYOND SUB PAR EXISTENCE, BETTER WITH 3 TREATMENTS.
I studied energy work in every form voraciously and in depth ever after.
The biggest thing I noticed after energy work was that as shut down I had been mentally and physically, feeling energy running through me was drastically noticeable. My innate extra sensory gifts were back online after shutting them down in my childhood after being told that my eyes, ears, and mind were just playing tricks on me and I basically could not trust myself…
I studied every modality possible. I used yoga as my vehicle for strengthening my body, as there was nothing else I was strong enough to do. I opened up a yoga studio 2 years later sharing the wealth of yumminess my studies had brought to my life. Yoga classes, intuitive energy work and through the body work I provided, Restorative thai partner yoga therapy, I learned first hand that the body stores trauma. I’d unlock pockets of stashed trauma in my clients bodies (hint-this is where your pain/weakness/injuries occur) and see, feel, hear, taste, and smell memories. This came in pretty handy when I started getting downloads of my own traumas from childhood that were so intense that I’d had complete amnesia around them, until I didn’t. Memory recall rocked my world WITH all my tools and knowledge. I would have thought I was insane without having felt somatic memories in so many of my clients.
With my recall, I focused solely on my healing so I could again mother my children in the way I felt they deserved. I shut down my beloved studio, invested in intense energy medicine, profiling, and healing courses for myself, focused on healing all that needed intense loving, compassion, and nurturing. I’ve undergone an intense letting go, allowing nothing that has presented itself as incompatible with my full health and wellbeing. Which basically looks like doing everything I said I’d never do…I’ve gone into the caves I’ve feared most to reclaim my most precious treasures-wholeness, peace, satisfaction with life.
While my kids may not have gotten the version of me I wished they had while they were young and developing their outlooks of life, they got the best I was capable of providing at the time and they are somehow grateful for the upbringing they received.
I now funnel my passionate nurturing, supportive, transformative and aligning energy to to those who are ready to know themselves on a profoundly sovereign level, process their excess empathic emotions, and step up to experiencing the enjoyable existence we can create in this life.
Namaste Powerful Ones!